School and Vacations

WELL I'M BACK IN SCHOOL. TODAY WAS MY FIRST DAY BACK IN AWHILE, AND I FIND MYSELF ALITTLE RUSTY. I'VE REALLY GOT TO GET BACK IN THE GROOVE OF THINGS. THE FIRST DAY AND I'VE ALREADY GOT SO MUCH HOMEWORK THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW I'LL EVER FINISH IT. BUT I KNOW THAT IF I WAITED TILL THE FALL SEMESTER, I WOULDN'T GO BACK. SO HERE I AM. WE HAD PLANNED A VACATION WHERE WE HAD HOPED TO GO SEE EVERYONE. HAD THE RENTAL CAR RESERVED AND EVERYTHING. MICHAEL ALREADY GOT HIS VACATION TIME APPROVED AND WE WERE JUST WAITING FOR THE TIME TO COME. AND THEN HE CALLS ME AND TELLS ME THAT THE BOSS ABOVE HIS BOSS SAID NO VACATIONS TILL AUGUST. OH I WAS SO MADE. I HAD ALREADY MADE ARRANGMENTS AND EVERYTHING. SO I GUESS WE'LL JUST TAKE A SMALLER TRIP TOWARDS THE END OF AUGUST. WE'RE BOTH REALLY DISSAPOINTED.

HEARTBROKEN

WELL YESTERDAY AROUND 5 PM I HAD THIS REALLY HORRIBLE PAIN IN MY RIGHT ABDOMINAL REGION. IT WAS ALMOST TAKING ME TO THE GROUND IT HURT SO BAD. MOM WAS GETTING SCARED AND SO WAS MICHAEL. SO THEY SAID THEY WERE GOING TO TAKE ME TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. SO THEY WE WERE ON OUR WAY TO CARL ABLERT. I EXPLAINED EVERYTHING TO THE TRIAGE NURSE, THROW UP A FEW TIMES. THEY DID URINE AND BLODD WORK. THEN THE DOCTOR ASKED IF THEY WAS ANY WAY THAT I WAS PREGNANT. I TOLD HIM WE WERE TRYING, BUT THAT I HAD TOOK A TEST LAST WEEK AND IT CAME UP NEGATIVE. SO ABOUT 20 MINUTES LATER, HE COMES IN HOLDING A PIECE OF PAPER, AND SAYS SURPRISES ARE JUST THE BEST. HE HANDS ME THE PAPER AND RIGHT NEXT TO HCG, IT SAID POSITIVE. ALL I COULD DO WAS START TO CRY. MY MOM WAS ALMOST CRYING AND ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS I GOTTA GO TELL MICHAEL (WHO WAS ASLEEP IN THE CAR) FINALLY I HAD GOTTEN MY WISH...I WAS FINALLY PREGNANT. THEN I LOOKED AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE AND IT WASN'T MY NAME. AND NOT 2 SECONDS AFTER I ASKED THE DOCTOR, THE NURSE CAME IN AND SAID THAT WAS THE WRONG PAPER. THE GIRL NEXT DOOR TO ME, WHO THOUGHT SHE HAD THE FLU WAS PREGNANT. THE DOCTOR MIXED THE PAPERS UP. THEN ALL I COULD DO WAS REALLY CRY. FOR JUST THAT BRIEF SECOND EVERYTHING THAT WE HAD HOPED AND WANTED WAS GOING TO COME TRUE, AND JUST THAT FAST, IT WAS A LIE. THE DOCTOR KEEPT TELLING ME HE WAS SORRY. MY MOM CAME UP HELD ME AND KEPT TELLING ME IT WAS OKAY, THAT IT'LL HAPPEN. SO AFTER X-RAYS AND EXAMINES, I HAVE THE BEGINNING STAGES OF KIDNEY STONES. YEAH!!! SO NEEDLESS TO SAY THAT LAST NIGHT WAS NOT THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE. I WAITED TILL WE GOT HOME TO TELL MICHAEL WHAT HAPPENED, AND HE GOT REALLY MAD. AND HE JUST HELD ME WHILE I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP.I'M NOT MAD AT THE DOCTOR, I KNOW STUFF LIKE THAT HAPPENS. I THINK I'M MORE MAD AT MYSELF FOR GETTING SO EMOTIONAL BEFORE I HAD AN ABSOLUTE CONFIRMATION. BUT I'VE BEEN GETTING BETTER. I'M NOT UPSET WHEN SOMEONE SAYS THEY'RE PREGNANT. I DON'T GET DEPRESSED WALKING BY THE BABY ISLE. AND I'VE STARTED TO RESEARCH ADOPTION AGENCIES. SO WE'LL SEE HOW THINGS GO. ALTHOUGH IT HURTS MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WE STILL HAVE LOTS OF TIME. I'VE JUST GOT TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT.

Love is patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offence, nor is it resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others’ sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end. There are three things that last, faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love.
St Paul to the Corinthians 13: 4-8 8, 13

The Move

WELL WE'RE FINALLY IN OUR NEW APARTMENT! IT'S KIND OF WEIRD JUST HAVING ME AND MICHAEL IN THE HOUSE! AFTER ALMOST 5 YEARS OF LIVING TOGETHER, IT'S THE FIRST REAL TIME THAT WE'VE LIVED ALONE! I'M KIND OF SCARED...WHAT IF WE DON'T LIKE EACHOTHER! HAHA! OTHER THAN THAT, WE'RE DOING OKAY! THE WEATHER HERE IS DRIVING US NUTS! 70 ALL WEEK THEN BAM, 30 AND SNOW. TODAY 77 AND NOW TONITE RAIN! NO WONDER I'M SICK ALL THE TIME. AND I REALLY HATE THAT THE WEATHER IS CRAPPY LIKE THIS CAUSE MICHAEL IS OUT IN IT. SO I GOT HIM LOTS OF SOUPS AND WARM FOOD FOR LUNCH. BUT HECK IT'LL PROBABLY BE 90 IN A COUPLE OF DAYS. THANK GOODNESS WE HAVE A HUGE CLOSET SO I CAN KEEP OUR WINTER AND SUMMER CLOTHES OUT! HAHA!

Furniture and Fertility

Well i finally made a decision, my living room furniture will be here tomorrow night. So excited about that. I think Michael was too, he really wanted his recliner more than a new bedroom set. LOL! But anywho, went to the doctor yesterday, such a long trip, but Michael really likes this doctor. A lot more than the last one. The last one makes me cry and i swear Michael wants to jump over his desk and smack him in the face. Good Husband! lol! but the new doctor is really, really nice, and totally explained everything to Michael, who needs it the most. Gave us hope and didn't tell us not to have one and if we must than it's going to be like lightning in a bottle. I should report that doctor. But anywho, we starting another round, the only crapy part about it, is that the medicine makes me so nauseas, that i want to throw up water. YIPEE! But i will take anything, the most pain in the world to have a baby with Michael. It's just cute, Michael makes me take vitamins, he's been reading all the books about fertility and PCOS. He's even rationing out my caffine. And i can't live without my Dr. Pepper. He's trying to quit smoking cause i'm going too. It's just the little things that other people would think is stupid, that make me laugh and realize that he wants this just as much as i do. So we'll keep our fingers crossed, and we've changed our philosophy. It's not "IF" we get pregnant it's "WHEN" we get pregnant. POSITIVE ATTITUDE!!!

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Silence

Well EVERYONE is at work, and it's finally quiet in the house, except for the dogs. It gives me time to think, then it makes me mad that they're at work and i'm not. I wish the workman's comp crap would hurry up, it's almost to the point of me just calling a end to it, just so i can go back to work. But i guess the free time gives me the time to work on my new business projects. Got a craft show coming up at the end of March and i am nowhere near done with the all the stuff i wanted to take. But anywho, i've got a dilema, Michael finally said we could get some new furniture, but i have to decide between a new bedroom set or new couches. I tried to do pouty face for both of them but didn't work this time. lol. I REALLY want the bedroom set. It's a sleigh bed and two night stands, dresser, and a mirror. I've always, always wanted a sleigh bed. And the couch is a funny shaped sectional. It's like in the shape of kidney bean almost. Michael and i can both lay on it perfectly. Not much room for company, but we don't get much company. And we would get Michael his recliner he's been crying about. So i don't know, i have a week to think about it, or atleast until our income tax comes in. AMEN for that! lol!

New To The Blog World

Hello! Well I guess I should start off by saying that we're new to blogging. My mother-in-law started one and thought it was a cool idea. So I'm gonna keep up with this as best as i can, and let ya'll know what michael and i are up too!